was busy tis few days!
worked at taka for 3 days. do coolie work loh. lol. anyway was tiring.
once you wear on taka uniform means you have to ' bao sua bao hai bao ka liao ' ( cover everything ).
i get scolded everytime. they didnt even teach me a single thing, and i have to learn myself.
monday rest at home. tues hubby came back home already due to his high fever.
wed went to tan tock seng visit chieu yen with shuyi baobei.
she involved in a accident. she hurt her spinal cord. hope she recovers fast. when they put on the cast she was in pain, xing tong luh!
ah john passed away.
my condolences to ah john even thou i do not know him.
after tat train-ed home with shuyi baobei.
thurs hubby acc me to orchard to get my punch card sign cos i didnt punch in and out. collected my uniform and went up to return the uniform and photocopy my bank book and ic.
will be getting my pay only on 25th july.
after tat walked around, went lucky plaza than train-ed to nuh cos hubby went to take mc. he went in fever facility room. lie on bed for 1 hour than collect mc and medicine.


had heated argument.
we quarrel everytime he booked out. hais. what happen to our relationship?
i didnt want both of us to quarrel. i know, it's really a small matter but i made a big fuss out of it. but i didn't mean it. i just felt tat our r/s became bad to worst. maybe the time we had with each other was really little. but i do treasure the time when you booked out.
i do admit i change alot ever since i had baby and after baby was born. but i do try to change my attitude and control my temper. but sometimes i just feel no care and concern from you.
during the quarrel we both ask each other, where the past us gone to?
maybe i was hoping for the past you, and you were hoping for the past me, that's why we aren't able to accept each other changes now.
i do feel really upset even thou i say really mean things to you. but deep down in my heart it hurts.
i really don wish to have a broken marriage. but i'm afraid to rely on you at times.
everyone always say early marriage don last long, but i wan to prove that it's not true. but it's not only about proving, but i really wan a long lasting marriage with you.
my parents had a broken marriage, but i don wish to end up lyk them.


a good lover may not be a good husband.
a good husband may not be a good lover.


he may be a good boyf but not a good husband.
he may be a good husband but not a good boyf.




i do really cherish this r/s and marriage.
but still, sorry about yesterday. i love you.




hubby on his way to camp already. today his mc end. but tmr morning will book out already. kind of silly. book in just to slp for 1 night and book out the next day. but no choice, i tink his sergeant major wants him to book in today. ahahs. alright. end of post!

a tired day today.
met aunt for lunch at chinatown point. had delifrance. after tat aunt sheltered me over to apollo center.
after tat went for the interview at manfield employment agency. i thought it was a company hiring admin, but made a mistake. haha. i made a mess in the application form. didn't know how to fill up well. msg aunt and ask her wat they are asking about. lol. i'm the first to fill up but the last to go for interview. the interviewer was veh friendly. haha. he was lyk speaking mix english and chinese with me, so i also reply in mix english and chinese. lols. he ask me, warh so young married ah, got baby ah? warh, last week your baby full month, i also attended a baby's full month last week. lol. & he was lyk how you slim down so fast? got any secret formula? -.-"
over friendly? x=
than went bugis to shop for my esprit polo tee but don have. than bus-ed to pp to see whether still have anot. have, but lazy try. so end up never buy.
hubby say acc me go buy tis wkend loh! yay!:D
hope he don't get confine.
last min went takashimaya for interview. was successfull lor. but work as cashier. hmm, it's not a permanent job. i working as cashiering for a event. start tmr till 8th of june. if 11 of june i still can work can continue working. but i work tis as temp job while waiting for the agency to call me lohh.
thanks shuyi baobei for the job intro:D
and thanks again for acc-ing me on the journey home. so love you(x
alright. need to rest. tmr have to wake at 8.
end of post!

20th may' 08


cab over to mummy house in the afternoon. suppose to head to posb to add in mummy's name in my bank acc. but end up, precious dog was sick. keep " lao sai ". so brought him to vet at paya lebar there. again end up the doc did nothing, told us to go mount peasent animal hospital at stevens rd there. stupid! so uncle fetched us to kovan's posb and he brought precious dog to the animal hospital near kovan. better & closer? queued for quite long, couldn't add in mummy's name to my acc. so open a joint acc under me and mummy's name. thanks mummy for the $500. (: need $500 inside the bank acc to open luh. after that went kfc. i tink i'm afraid of food, i just lost my appetite at the sight of food. haha. headed to kk to make baby bonus after tat. went shopping at parkway. mummy bought esprit clothings for me & i suddenly fell in love with esprit! lol. they are more to the mature type. i can't go on wearing those fashion trends clothing, i'm a mummy already:D must dress lyk mummy. oh well, had yong tao foo for dinner and cabbed home.
a tired day.




21st may'08


well, yesterday was upset again. though hubby may understand me but he won know how i feel. it's a feeling tat can never be understand. baby was guai last night. after each feed she goes to slp after i burp her and change her pampers all the way till today morning. than i slept all the way till 4 plus in the afternoon. bathed and called the job no for interview tmr at opp clark quay the mrt station there, the apollo center. wish me good luck! i wan to go work as soon as possible. perhaps busy life suits me more. i can't stand staying at home doing nothing much everyday. maybe once i start work i will be leading a different life already.
i will feel better by then? hope so.
alright. end of post.

16 may' 08


hubby came back in the afternoon around 12 plus. was alone at home taking care of baby. hubby's mum went with hubby bro to court cos he got caught for throwing ciggs? so sway. 2nd time. he have to do community service. nothing much happen.


so do 17 may' 08 too.
hubby had his soccer session.


oh, anyway. had my baby girl full month celebration at home team ns adventure centre.
TO ALL: DO NOT BOOK THERE DE CHALET.
it totally sucks big time. the pic online shows beautiful environment but it totally sucks. worst than east coast chalet. still say fully air conditioned but it's not at all. only the room. wth!
cabb to chalet around in the afternoon 2 plus 3. went there to check in, end up have to walk back to cdans to check in at the reception counter. purposely cab to the chalet there end up have to walk under the scorching sun while carrying baby to cdans. so stupid! than walk back to the guard house and check in. is lyk some kind of attap house. it is only good in a sense that every attap house are kept at certain distance. more privacy? below is the kitchen facilities whereby you can cook. and you have to walk the stairs up to the room itself. had buffet at downstairs.
so many mosquitoes!
thanks everyone for the hongbaos and gift. and special thanks to mummy and uncle and family for the baby pram and swing bed. haha.
was pretty upset tat time. i was busy all the way alone. hubby's mum was in the room taking care of baby all the way. i was running up and down serving guest. LOL. lyk crazy woman. x=
and hubby didnt help out at all lor. he keep entertaining his friends):
somemore is our 1 year anniversary.
hais.
super upset.
was tinking can't go out celebrate our 1 year anniversary never mind, just treat it as celebrate with baby. but end up, the whole day was in a mess and i was all alone doing all the ' sai gang ' ( rubbish job ).
forget it.
end of post.

HAHA. okay. regarding yesterday's post. it was written out of anger.
nothing much.
now i take care of baby at night and hubby's mum will take care when she wakes.
baby has been having stomach upset recently. tat's why no matter how we pat her or coax her it doesn't seems to work.
hubby called me today morning.
here goes wat we said in the conversation:


hubby: wat you doing?


me: slping.


hubby: just now sergeant call us .. .. .. ( i didn't hear, still in my dreamland)


me: huh?


hubby: repeated wat he said. (still dreaming)


me: huh?


hubby: (fed up tone)- warh lao i said, sergeant call us go up bunk prepare things than go down assemble. than i never go down i slept in bunk & got caught.


me: (stun)- HUH?! why you slp in bunk?


hubby:(pek cek tone) tired na. don know how leh now. i told sergeant yesterday live firing until midnight veh tired. sergeant say, only you tired. he don see why the rest never slp in bunk. LL, bo wei gong. don know will get confinement anot.


me: ... ( don know wat to reply)




now don know how. later get confinement how to celebrate baby's full month uh. hais. until now still haven tell me how's the result.


so pek cek but still continue slping. woke ate bread mixed with egg and fried. had coffee. lol. i need coffee to sustain my energy. tired mar! be mummy & you will know. haha.
did pratically nothing the whole day luh.
okay. i'm going off to do my nails.
end of post.

shall have a short brief on wat happen the past few days.
actually i already posted it yesterday but there was something wrong with the internet, thus. gone.
LOL. have to re-post, so lazy!
hubby came home. he had foot rot and serious heat rashes everywhere.
of cos luh! so hot and furthermore they have to wear on boots for 6 continous days.
so disgusted! can't bath somemore x:
poor hubby.
than hubby had his soccer session for 3 continous night. LOL.
oh the EPL for last sunday night score for many teams was ridiculous.
especially the match on middlesbrough with man city.
the score was 8-1. haha.
so unbelievable.
than hubby cabb-ed to camp on monday morning as he overslept. hurr.
my girl vomited alot last night. first time thou, still alright. it's normal for babies to spit and vomit milk. yupp.
she cried veh hard when she poo poo till her face turn purple black. scare us!
so brought her to see doc today morning.
see her face rashes, frequent hiccups and her poo poo problem.
doc say face rashes and frequent hiccups is common in babies so no worries.
as for her poo poo, doc say she doesn't have any stomach upset or too much wind in her tummy.
she doesn't have constipation cos her poo poo not hard at all.
so doc say maybe is her temper. LOL. wat a baby temper. cry lyk she wanna tear down the house when she poo poo.
she's got a super guai pi! haha.
oh yarh and christine mention something.
daddy temper + mummy temper = baby temper!
true:D , haha.
alright. got to go downstairs check money already.
only me during confinement can keep going out and going downstairs for walks. LOL.
but you know it's really boring to stay at home all day. it KILLS.
and it really sucks.
having her in my tummy for 37 weeks is veh xing ku, deliver her is super xing ku.
but it's nothing compared to this confinement period.
can't bath hair, even bath body also 2-3 days 1 time, every food must have ginger, can't drink too much plain water to avoid water retention, avoid sitting on floors, no wearing of skirts or dress, wear slipper at home? -.- and blah. many many things. gahh!
and i'm growing fatter):
lol. actually i slim down abit already than suddenly i became so fat x:
oh dear.
aunt say she's gonna get me contact lens from m'sia when she goes this sunday loh!
haha. lyk tis i can wear to work already!
oh and the manager or watso-ever boss haven call me. was wondering how's the job result.
well, actually if you wanna hire me just hire, don wanna hire just say don wan.
lyk tat won waste my time and i can faster go find another job.
alright.
end of post~

Labels: 5 more days to baby's full month celebration(:

my gal has hard time poo poo-ing everyday! mummy heartache ah!
she cries so hard everytime she poo poo.
i guess i have to accept her drinking honey water or mixing water with baby's fei zao shui.
oh ya, and she bleeds when poo poo-ing. drink milk makes her body veh heaty that's why will lyk tat.
poor gal!
mummy sayang!
cleaned, wipe, change bedsheets, & sweep.
super clean! but dust comes back fast! ):
now the room is clean, good for baby & hubby will be back tmr ler!
he still haven't contact me! gah.
oh well. regarding the payroll job i don even know whether i will be employed.
oh dear.
-.-"
if i know things will be lyk tat i rather go nuh through small aunt's recommendation and work.
hais. waste my time luh.
later don know drag until when than can go work!
oh, i just recieved hubby call! he's coming back in another 2-3 hours!
YAY-NESS(:
hahahaa!
super happy luh:D hehhhhhhhh~
okay! end of post. xD

updated alot today(: okay! the END.

Labels: 2 more nights and hubby will be back(:

6th may' 08


hubby's mum went for the operation in the morning. when she came back she was so dizzy until she walked zig-zag. scare me loh! made milo for her and she went to slp. shall not mention wat op. at night the same thing happened again. 谁能了解我现在的心情? i went to the living room wanting to bring her in to slp after i chatted with aunt on phone but i saw her in 奶奶's room. hais. don know how to say la.
upset.




7th may' 08


i have try to learn to take things easy but i just can't help feeling upset every now and then. sorry. i may sound rude. but, baby is lyk hers not mine lyk tat. she can't poo poo i also will heart pain de lor. she's my daughter. i 辛辛苦苦 carry her in my tummy for 37 weeks. i 辛辛苦苦 go through so much pains to deliver her. i also will feel upset de lor. everytime she cries veh hard i also will get upset and cry de lor. sometime she cry, pat her, hug her, carry her also no use de lor. i feel veh frustrated. lyk everything i do also no use. even hubby's little bro also say you look more lyk her mummy rather than 奶奶。after hearing i feel even more upset lor. than sometimes carry my baby into her room without telling me lyk i not her mum lyk tat. every night she slps with me than suddenly she just put her in her room to slp with her without telling me. it's lyk, really not respecting me thou she's older than me. wat am i. her mum? i don even look lyk.
now i need hubby by my side is not even around. can't even contact him. everything also cannot.
i'm not angry with hubby's mum, but i just feel upset with this little thing. is really a little thing. i'm suppose to rest and all but i just want to spend as much time as i can with my baby. i'm going to work right after confinement. i won rest for long. i need to work to earn money. otherwise how to buy her milk powders and pampers. sometimes actually only change 1 time but change already she go poo and shh shh again end up need to use another 1. she use alot ah.
why everybody agree to her taking honey water? i know my gal poo poo veh xing ku but than once she drink honey water she won drink plain water ler. she's not even a month old and she will be drinking honey water. than how? hais): any advice? is it really a better choice to give her honey water?
maybe i'm taking things to hard, but it's hard to control my feelings. i don know how to approach and speak to her. after all when i go to work, she will be the one taking care of my baby. i just wan to spend more time with my little gal. i wan to be close to her. am i taking things too hard? i just wan to be a good mummy. i wan the best for my daughter.
this isn't the life i wanted in the first place. i didn't expect things will happen lyk tat.
i'm swallowing my tears everyday. really everyday.
我很辛苦！真的很辛苦啊！
i'm falling apart.
can any 好心人 be my listening ear? )'=






anyway HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DARLING SHANS(:
can't celebrate but shall bu hui after my confinement.
loves.




hubby i miss you! i wan you back fast. & i really need you.
)'=






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i tink god passed my msg to hubby. hubby called! hahas. super duper happy! (x once hubby called every unhappiness just seems to disappear! just hearing hubby's voice make me happy enough.
sometimes ppl are always not satisfied with how the boyf's and girlf's treat them and are always having high requirements. but to me, i tink i really just wanted a simple and caring hubby and tat's enough. he made the effort to call back. i guess nobody is able to call back during field camp. only him, so special!:D
he's the special guy tat stands in my heart. even thou we always quarrel, but he always never fail to make me happy after tat. although at times is my fault too, but he always apologize to me. in every quarrel, it's not just 1 party fault. is both party. it's just lyk clapping, you need both hands to clap. 1 person alone is unable to cause a quarrel. tat's wat i learned in this r/s, in this marriage.
thanks hubby for tolerating everything. last time he veh bad tempered and hot tempered, but now he change alot. i swear last time i always feel he's the worst guy with the worst attitude and temper. but now not just for me, but he also change for baby.
sometimes we can quarrel until it seems the marriage can end anytime. surprise uh? but i really treasure this marriage.
i will stop my super childish actions.
really glad to have a hubby lyk him.
i love JACKY HENG JING JIE!
we are married and it's for life(: tat's what he told me.
now i'm controlling my attitude and temper so we won quarrel!
thou we are not lyk other couples with a long r/s, but i believe we can have a blissful marriage.

Labels: I'M TOTALLY UPSET.

baby was naughty last night. hug her, pat her, carry her. she just doesn't want to slp on her swing bed. haha. i always say the bed will bite her. lols. hug her to slp & i also fall asleep. x= put her down to bed only at 6 plus in the morning. super tired. tat's the price to pay for being mummy. hahas.
today is hubby's 2nd day at field camp. he surely down there kpkb de luh. can't bath for 6 days with sweat and mud and .. eeeeeee. haha. 1 word to describe, dirty! actually i'm better off. but his is for 6 days, mine is for 1 month. thou i use powder shampoo and medical herbs to bath but it's not clean at all luh! LOLS. and he definitely can't slp well carrying that rifle while slping. actually worried for him, he needs to take good care of the rifle otherwise his sergeant will steal and charge him to 7 years db. sometimes baby cry and scream he doesn't even know, wonder how is he doing.
super sheck lorr.
wanted to study today but my energy is really drained off. i'm tired. totally tired. i will just jump out of the bed whenever baby makes a single sound. i guess i will never get enough slp for few months.
hope hubby's mum will be fine tmr & everything goes smoothly.
i wan to go cosy bay to relax myself! i wan to eat mango ice! i wan to eat chocolate fondue! i wan to go out! my mood is just down, down & down.
super miss hubby. i need him by my side, now.
i'm falling apart.






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hubby called! =D HAHAHA! so happy:D he use his sergeant phone call. say home got urgent matters. but didn't have time to chat so didn't even get a chance to ask him how is he doing in field camp. but oh wells. i'm super happy now:D

Labels: 5 more days to hubby's book out day.

hubby had his first day of field camp today. wondering how he is doing. hope he's fine. yesterday night was getting upset with something. can't say it here. there's nothing i can do. really nothing. there is something everyday making me upset.
just wanna shut my eyes & forget about everything. i'm tired.
i have 'o's to cope, baby to take care, need to work after confinement, & money. cash is running out. we can't cope with hubby's army pay. it's worst than bangalah pay. at least bangalah gets $600 plus. army pay only $400 plus. hubby say wanna find mp so when he gets posted after he pop can get posted to a camp nearer home. hope he gets granted 8-5 soon. in tat way more time with hubby and baby.
studied abit of physics. didn't have to mood recently. but i promise hubby and aunt i will pass my 'o's & i wan to pass my 'o's. actually hubby knew if i re-take 'o's life would be harder to cope. but he gave me his support. musn't disappoint him and aunt and friends.
imagine when i start work? go to work in morning, reach home bath do everything and study during free time. night take care of baby. super JO siol. watever. i'm freaked out now. super shag.
kill me pls anyone )'=


shall post baby photo pherhaps tmr.






i miss hubby. i need him.
stupid field camp.
tat's army life.

Labels: 6 more days to hubby book out day.

2nd april' 08

Labels: i'm BREAKING DOWN.

29th april' 08


nothing special. eat, take care of baby. bath with medical herbs and super hot water.
no shampoo and no soap for me )=
something happened and i was very upset. shall not say about it.




30th april' 08


revised abit of physics in the afternoon till hubby reached home. today was his last booked out day all the way until his field camp starts on this sat. time will be hard to pass than)x actually thought the com died alrady. it stucks at error loading system bla. but hubby bro teach hubby the steps to reformat and the com revived again=D haha. hubby and his bro had their soccer session. as for me, slp. slp is more important cos i have to wake every 3 hours in the middle of the night to feed her and change her pampers.




1st may' 08


LABOUR DAY today. but hubby's book in day will be today. hubby had his soccer session for awhile today and went off ard 6 plus. can't see hubby all the way till next sat probably. 6 days not being able to contact with him due to his field camp. hope he can get it thru thou. x= he cant bath in field camp, but he got super love clean. and he also have to be alert in his slp. sergeants will be out to steal their rifles. sometimes hubby can slp so soundly until baby cry so hard he doesn't even know. but, i got confidence in him=D haha. had a little quarrel at night but was fine. shans and mimi came. they bought milk powder for baby. thanks(: watched tv till 12 plus and slept. baby always cry when drinking milk! but not those really cry, can't explain. and she super have alot of expressions on her faces when she slps! super adorable. xD
okay! end of post.




lazy post pic. shall post another day.






2 wishes i hope i can fufil it straight away : confinement END. & OUTING.
can any fairy godmother fufil my wishes straight away? i jus feel super dirty not being able to bath with soap and shampoo. but instead in replacement, medical herbs and powder shampoo.
oh ya, btw. aunt did visit me earlier on and brought the D.O.M fa guo lang jiu, yo xim, baby's anklet from disney orignal, baby's full month clothing and powder shampoo. and it's really bored to stay at home! )x
hubby's ah yi also bought dresses for baby. 1 of them is burbery and the other one, unknown. haha.
alright.
any fairy godmother can fufil my wishes feel free to contact me. )x

Labels: HUBBY missed.

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